Sometimes I just want to break free…free from this mold…I just want to be a rockstar…I want to cause a change to occur in this world…I’m ready to be the change I want to see. How many people want to affect this world with me!
As much as I have tried to run from the call of ministry it has caught up with me yet again…yet I have such distaste in my mouth for this man made church because of the heart of the people I encounter. One one hand I experience so much love, so much freedom from a foreign land…yet in the land that I knew and was familiar in, the people dont show love. How can you proclaim that you are a Christian yet feel justified in your carnal mindset. I dont understand how you can treat a fellow believer how I have been treated yet God warms my heart by letting me know that even Jesus experienced what I am experiencing.
I thank God that I have His compassion. If I did not love God and his people and even those who have not confessed that they believe in Him where would I be? If it was not for the compassion of God for me where would I be? I refuse to take his love for me for granted.
It hurts, I cant deny my emotions yet God is good. He will prevail and he will bring justice on behalf of me.
I see so much hurt and I want to help this world. We spend so much time in church and not enough time being the church. When are missionarys actually going to do mission work? When are evangelists going to evangelize? There are so many people that need help but we spend our energy trying to be the next big it person and stroking each other egos in the church and not enough time fulfilling our mission and purpose in this life.
I love God and I thank God I’m free. I feel like starting a rock band and rocking out for Jesus. I have my guitar already…I’m ready to do something profound in this earth…in Jesus name!